A Walk to Remember ♥

so, what are we?

2012-01-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

Good day peeps. It's finally Sunday and worst part is going back college tomorrow. All the reports, the tutorials, the lectures,..... Sighs. "Best" part is assignments. =/

Chinese New Year this year was a whole lot different than the past years. This year I gambled less (LOL?) and spent most of my time on the bed. The first two days were awesome. My life was perfect, or near to perfect. I had my family members with me and yes, you too. :)

Thinking about what happened few days back is a pain. And it hurts every part of my body. I couldn't cry, I couldn't smile, I had sleepless nights, I found myself in tears, I couldn't even communicate well with the parents..... Everything was falling down. And sometimes I wonder, is this fate? I always believe in fate and destiny but now? I've been fooled. I'm numb. How time flies and how fast people change, you can never know.

"The most painful thing is when the one who said never hurt you, hurt you." I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I'm not even near to perfect. I'm sorry I've my flaws. I'm sorry we've gone this far but in the end, we're hurt. I'm sorry I didn't put in enough effort. I'm sorry I've never been a good person to you. I'm sorry that the word sorry has became just another word for you.. I'm sorry.

Smile. Just to hide your tears.

We met by fate, we fell for each other without realising, we were perfect for each other and now.... I can't even find u in US. If this is just another story in my life, I wish it has a good ending. If this is just another lesson to be learn, I've learnt mine.

It kills me little by little knowing you're NOT doing fine because of me. It kills me knowing you've became a heartless person because of the pain I gave you. I'm sorry.

I'm stuck in between your love and my love.

And I don't know where it will brings us to.

And I don't know if this is worth the pain.

But we're not letting go either.

So, what are we?

one step closer.

2012-01-20T03:20:00.000+08:00

Went to Jung Sungha's concert live in my college/uni last year. Note last year. xD

He's a famous youtuber and he's a freaking young and awesome guitarist! Loved his performance that night. His skills were amazing and he's seriously damn talented. His smile was so angelic that it could melt anyone's heart :) he seldom smile during his performance but he did once in a while in the middle of performance. And I can be pretty sure the girls' heart were melting when he smiled. ;D

We chose the most expensive placing which means we were the VIPs! Hahaha.

He was totally a different person from whom I was imagining. In youtube, he looked like a small kid. He looked more mature and charming in real life :)

Bought his latest album for 50 bucks and had him signed on the inside. Priceless autograph :)

p/s the reason why I blog about him though it was last month/last year's event is because he's coming to Penang soon! I'm not sure about the date but you can always google it heh. Don't miss the chance to go and meet this talented young boy! :D

A video for you guys. My 2nd favorite after Bruno Mars-Grenade by Sungha!

....and thank you for being there.

beginning is always the hardest.

2012-01-17T22:58:00.001+08:00

WOW. It's almost a month since I last blogged. As usual, I shall put all the blame on my laziness. I'm seriously going crazy this semester. Lack of sleep, improper meals, tight schedule, 2 lab reports in a week, never-ending tutorial questions,........ Yet I'm still breathing. :/ Though I have 3 days of holidays per week, all the 5 subjects are cramped into 4 days. -_- Imagine people imagine. D:

I shall stop ranting. I was supposed to do this in the beginning of the month but yeah,...... procrastination. Sighs. Wanting to blog since forever and only today I had the urge to click on blogger.com as I gave up on my physics tutorial. D:

I shall stop ranting.

Another BIG match coming up this Thursday morning 5am!

Barcelona vs. Real Madrid

#elclasico

Definitely supporting Barca & hoping Messi will score! :D

The only thing I'm looking forward to is CNY. I just need a short break from this hole. =/

People say beginning is always the hardest.

I believe. Now.

i'm down if you wanna go.

2011-12-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Fly By.

Finally got myself BR cake that I've been craving for since last year's birthday.
Dins with the family @ Sakae Sushi was perfect.

Couldn't express how grateful and how awesome I felt yesterday. Too much of awesomeness that I woke up smiling today. >:)

It was yet another day of life but full with love. <3

Jingle bell jingle bell~

2011-12-25T10:47:00.001+08:00

It's Christmas, it's Christmas! This simply indicates 2011 is coming to an end! :O

Christmas in Songkhla with the family. Awesome! Love the cool breeze and the beach! Definitely the sweetest Christmas ever. >:)

Merry Christmas everyone! ♡

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

2011-12-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

My second home in Penang. Like seriously, I stopped by there everyday and I hate myself for the inability to control myself from drinking Chocolate Black Forest with extra mousse and chocolate chips. D: EVERY FREAKING DAY. Oh goodness. I seriously need to stop this madness or I'll die craving for bubble gurt when I'm back to KL in another two weeks. D:

ps In fact, I just came back from there. Had my second cup of the day. Dammit.
pps Holidays are ending very soon. Can I skip Semester 3? 5 freaking subjects in 4 months. Oh my..... T.T
pps Can't wait for 2012 anyways :)

Lucks to those taking PMR results tmrw! :D

butterflies in tummy.

2011-12-16T10:14:00.001+08:00

Okay, I lied about not getting nervous. Now, I'm nervous.

Lucks to everyone taking IELTS today & tomorrow!

ps Shall go coll now and finish this up asap!!

if this is all we're gonna be, i could not ask for more.

2011-12-15T19:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back to this small hole. Hmphh.
I have speaking test tomorrow which I'm supposed to be worry about but heck, I'm not. -.-
I have writing, reading and listening test on Saturday and I think I'm gonna pee in my pants on that day. I'm freaking scared for writing test. :O
I haven't eat anything since 11am. It's the total opposite when I'm back in Penang where I kept eating non-stop.
I am waiting for Messi to score in today's match! :D

Match is underway in Yokohama right now. It's half-time and the picture above, I just took it few seconds ago! :D

MESSI IS UBER HAWT. DROOLS*

ps I didn't include the worst news ever in the list above. Chemistry internal marks is out. Runs to a corner and emo*

everybody's looking for that something, one thing that makes it all complete.

2011-12-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Flying Without Wings.

I just can't live without her lol. She's my eating partner, my camho partner, my movie partner, my everything!

Going back to KL tomorrow morning. Having IELTS exam on Friday and Saturday morning. Seriously hope everything goes on smoothly. Kinda nervous for the speaking and writing test. :/

Lucks to everyone taking IELTS! :)

marvelous, fabulous.

2011-12-12T15:02:00.001+08:00

A night before all of us officially separated ways and go back to our hometowns. It was a night to remember @ Look Out Point. No words can actually describe what night was it. Plus it was eclipse that night! We missed it cause we were quite late lol.

ps I'm still confused whether it's Look Out Point or Look Up Point. 'Cause everyone of us said Up but the signboard showed Out. Hmm?

Beautiful view of whole KL! I guess so. It's so beautiful and I felt as if I was in some foreign countries wth.

Beautiful moon, perfect night :)

I love the second picture <3

Group picture :D

Last but not least, the most beautiful and my most favorite picture of all, points below* Aww, so prettyyyy! :)

The only sad thing about leaving KL is we'll be apart. I don't miss school, oh please. -.- We'll meet again, very soon! Three weeks time! Woots woots! :)

so wave goodbye, you'll never get it back;

2011-12-12T13:40:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying You're Missing It.

Spamming Jason Walker's songs from morning till night. Never get tired of listening his songs over and over again. His voice is simply amazing!

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Went through my pictures. Found some pretty pictures took by my awesome friends in KL. Friends since primary school. Same primary school, same secondary school, same college/university. We're just meant to be huh? :D

And I realized I blog very rarely about KL though I've been staying there for months. Therefore, I shall post up few pictures. Few as in really few. Lol.

PS Pictures below, I've no idea who took them. Either Serena or CYT.

From left: Yi Ting, Serena, Sin Wei and I.

Captured from the website we created for our assignment. Woots! ;)

View from our unit.

And guess what, guitar has became like a necessity to us in KL. For the boys, they played it everyday. But for the girls, we enjoyed listening more than playing HAHAHA. For the boys, each of them has a guitar but for the girls, a guitar is enough in one unit HAHAHA.

Awesome photography skills! ;D

I'm just bored. And I wonder what I'm going to do for the rest of the month..... Anyways, December is still my favorite month though :)

There'll be a day when you wish you could go back
When your mistakes will catch up with where you're at
Before you know all your chances will be gone
They will be gone

so i'm hiding what i'm feeling but i'm tired of holding this inside my head.

2011-12-11T03:07:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Falling For You.

I just can't take it,
my heart is racing,
emotions keep spinning out

Life after Finals is the total opposite of the life before Finals (obviously lol). I smell freedom~ Though I still have IELTS next week, well, I think everyone is enjoying their holidays right now. :D Semester break, here I comeeeeeeeeeee! :D

PS My semester break actually started few days back. Since Wednesday LOL.

On the other hand, if you ever wonder why am I still awake at this hour, well, no other reasons than football. Or to be specific, Messi. Hee! Big match later. It's the ELCLASICO! Match between two great & strong teams! :O

Barcelona vs Real Madrid

5 AM @ Santiago Bernabeu

I AM A FAITHFUL & LOYAL FAN OF BARCA. Woots woots! :P

FORCA BARCAAAAAAAAAA!

i'm done thinking you could ever change.

2011-11-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

I've turned into a crazy youtuber these few days. Supposed to be studying like a mad student but as usual, when it comes to studies, I couldn't help myself but fall asleep each time I touch my lecture notes. T.T

Many many songs I found on YouTube. Sharing some videos here so you guys could watch it and perhaps, download it! :D

#1 Sara Evans - A Little Bit Stronger.

#2 Keith Urban - Only You Can Love Me This Way.

#3 Joe Nichols - I'll Wait For You.

#4 Keith Urban - Somebody Like You.

#5 Keith Urban - Making Memories of Us.

Five songs for now. Keith Urban seriously rocks! His songs are pure and sing my heart out! The melody and tune is exactly my type of songs! >:)

PS OH BYE PENANG. T_T

I know my heart will never be the same.

But I'm telling myself I'll be okay.

i believe.

2011-11-25T16:32:00.000+08:00

I believe there's always rainbow after rain; there's always sunshine after rain; there's always smile after tears; there's always laughter after cry; there's always happiness everywhere; there's always THAT someone who will always be there for you.

I believe miracles do happen. And I believe every single thing happens for a reason. Things may turn out bad now, but in the end, it will be okay cause if it's not, then it's not the end yet. You may screw things up, but you can always fix it. Every ending is a new beginning. >:)

Perhaps I feel so good now because I'm going back to where I belong real soon! I miss Penang more than ever. And I wish it's the semester break already. I still have to come back here (KL) for Finals which is only TWO freaking days. And not to forget, I'm going to meet a Korean guitarist next Sunday! It's just one day before my Finals wth. YAY YAY YAY.

Presenting you guys Jung Sungha! Grenade: my all-time favorite song, in every condition. :D

my heart skipped a beat when i heard your name.

2011-11-21T03:47:00.013+08:00

#nowplaying Heartbeat by The Fray.

Why is it so hard to even tell someone how you feel? Why is it so hard to even tell someone what you have in your mind? Why is it so freaking hard to be yourself in every situation? WHY.

The questions above are all meant for myself, indirectly. Sometimes, things get worse if you spill out what's on your mind. But you tend to think too much if you don't say 'em out. So, actually, both ways hurt. You say or you don't, it doesn't make any difference cause it'll be either you're hurt or he/she is hurt or both. This is life. It's all about risks. Say it or held it in.

People say, when you speak the truth, you have nothing to worry/think about. In some ways, I find it quite true. I once did spoke the truth and I felt a whole lot better but more and more things come up everyday and I wasn't able to speak the truth every single day anymore. There comes a time where the person you trusted the most becomes the most secretive thing ever. And I didn't have a choice but to bottle everything up cause I know, the person I should trust the most is me, myself and I.

I don't get myself at times but I know I'm just a girl who is simply afraid of hearing things I don't want to hear; afraid of being hurt; afraid of being alone; afraid to take a step more when everyone stands still; afraid of darkness; afraid of being afraid. At times, I'm just afraid of myself, of my own feelings. :/

PS If you think this is the best for us, I shall do what you want me to do. Ignorance is a bliss.

i just want to tell you, to tell you i haven't forgot :)

2011-11-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

Damn addicted to this song. Thanks to Miss Chang Yi Ting for playing this song over and over and over again EVERYDAY. Now I'm going to take over her job and hit the replay button over and over and over againnnnnn. :D

MV + lyrics available here. Click this! ENJOY :D

tell me you won't give up cause i'll be waiting if you fall.

2011-11-15T13:10:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Save You.

I shall tempt you all with pictures of delicious food. MUAHAHAHAHA.

This was our lunch last Sunday @ Thai Thai @ Sunway Pyramid. Two thumbs up!

Main reason we went Sunway Pyramid was to skate. And we skated for hours. Damn cool. Consequences of it is that my body is aching like mad now. :/ I couldn't feel my feet and my butt. Zzz. Shall wear proper socks next time. My skin peeled off thanks to the awesome me for wearing retard socks lol.

Feels good after posting these pictures. :D Time for assignments this whole freaking week! Messi will be back in action this weekend. YAY :D

just like all the seasons never stay the same, all around me I can feel the change;

2011-11-13T01:03:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Today My Life Begins.

It's not what you think will always happen. Sometimes, life will knock you real hard and all you got to do is just smile. And everything will be alright. :) I guess I need someone to slap me real hard so I could get back in reality. But nooooo, dreams are always better than reality. I wouldn't want to live in dreams but I want to continue dreaming. It's the best I can do for now. At least I'm happy. :D

Guess I'm just too free after all those quizzes and midterms HAHAHA. Now I'm waiting patiently for Finals which is in December. Then, semester break againnnnnn! Woohoo. On the second thought, can Finals don't come foreverrrr?! T_T Slaps self* Wake up Shuwirda wake up!

ps Can't wait to go back to where I belong after this freaking long semester over. I miss shopping with my Mom & Dad & sister. I miss my family.

so maybe it's true that i can't live without you.

2011-11-11T18:48:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Two Is Better Than One.

I can't imagine my life without these two kids. There will be no reason for me to smile and to dream and to live if I wasn't thinking about them. I love them as much as I love my family. Family always comes first and yeah, they are my family. <3

One thing I really love about them is they suit me so well. We three can hang around, shop and eat whole day without complaining! They're just small kids, I know and I won't spoil them HAHAHAHA. To be frank, I've never love someone as much as I love them. :)

ps Updates on the latest event/outing will be out soon. ;)

I've gone thru a day without you and I did it. ;););)

i try so hard to forget and yet i can't forget.

2011-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying From The Beginning Till Now.

It's a must-watch video! <3

So it's 11.11.11 today and it's seriously a big matter all over the world. Everyone's pretty aware that this will never happen in another hundred years so yeah, it's a memorable day I supposed. :)

Time to spill out some things. It has been quite some time since I do so in this small space. I miss blogging.

I've had the worst and the best moments in life. Sometimes, I really wonder, what if I've never been hurt in the past, will I still be me today or the other way round? I've to admit pain makes you stronger. But at times, it kills you quietly and deeply in your heart. Worst part, you just have to bare it all alone as you have no one to turn to when you felt a slice in your heart. :/ WHY DO PEOPLE HURT EACH OTHER KNOWING EACH AND EVERYONE HAS A HEART TOO?! I just can't forgive myself that I forgive a person who hurt me how many freaking times just cause I love him/her. If and only if I am a heartless girl.

Memories..... are indescribable. I don't recall as much bad memories as I recalled the good times. I don't find it stupid and ridiculous to live with the memories. To me, it's part of me that keeps me going on life with a smile on my face. Though at times, when I'm really down, I cried over the memories, I still could wake up and smile, cause I know, memories are the one keeping me alive everyday. I just want to make today a memorable day by doing things I love cause I know, at the end of the day, it's only me here to paint the colors in my life, no one else will do so (not until I found the right one :D).

I've learned;
-good things come to those who wait but better to those who work for it.
-breaking up isn't the worst thing that ever happened (you won't die losing one person)
-pain is just another feeling that you can choose whether you want to overcome it or not.

I've learned to fake a smile in front of thousands when my heart is crying softly on the inside. I've learned to say NO to people who deserved it. I've learned that I am incapable of being a heartless girl. Cause after all, I am still me, I'm a human, I'm a girl; who falls for the right person but often at the wrong time; who believes in fate & destiny; who does stupid things without thinking; who is soft and weak when it comes to feelings matter; who just want to be happy.

Everything will be alright. Self-console* Because if it's not alright then it's not the ending yet. I will be perfectly alrighttttt. :)

those moments i'll always cherish.

2011-10-26T04:19:00.000+08:00

It is past 4am and I'm still awake. Watched football. And I feel a lil hyper though I didn't sleep the whole day. :O To be frank, it was the worst performance by Barcelona today. Sighs. I will not think too much since they won even though it is just 1-0. Plus 3 points, yay! :D

I've never eaten this much of food before in my entire life (except during big occasion eg. wedding). Butter prawn my favorite! Cheese crab and steamed fish. Japanese tauhu and vege. WAHHH DAMN HUNGRY AH NOW. D:

I MISS MY MOM & DAD & SISTER & NIECE & NEPHEW & EVERYONE.

Knowing someone will be there for you at your hardest time is the best thing that could ever happen. And knowing someone you care, cares you too is the second best thing that could ever happen.

I should go to sleep right now. Happy Deepavali to everyone! :)

PS I miss celebrating Deepavali with my friends. I miss playing fire crackers with them. :/

but I’m not lost, I’m not gone, I haven’t forgot;

2011-10-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Remember When by Avril Lavigne.

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise

Can someone tell me how to smile? I think I've forgotten how smile looks like. And I think I've forgotten how it feels like to actually smile.

How it hurts when you trust someone and the person just scattered it everywhere. How it hurts when you care so much about someone and the person ignores you. How it hurts to think about someone, knowing you will never cross his/her mind. How it hurts to have feelings. How it hurts to feel something you've never want to. How it hurts to actually smile when deep inside your heart, you're crying so hard.

Why does the word "hurt" ever exist? Why do humans need to hurt one another? Why is it necessary to hurt another person even if you love the person? Why do you even need to hurt someone in the first place? If and only if hurt doesn't exist.

This is a very emo post. Well, it has been so long since I write my thoughts here. Being hurt without an appropriate reason sucks. Have you ever feel like crying in the middle of the night, thinking of the past, why it didn't turn out well? Yes, I did. And I hate having that feeling. Sighs. But, yeah, life has got to move on no matter what. They hurt you once, they will hurt you again. So, care not about those who don't care. I wish I could tell my heart that.

As much as I want to forget those memories, that is how much I want to keep it close to my heart. As much I want to lie to myself that I'm fine, that is how much I know I'm not fine at all. As much as I carved a smile, that is how much pain and tears I've shed behind the smile. No matter how many people surround me, as much as I want to feel I'm not alone, I still find for you in the room full of people, I still feel lonely in the crowd, I still feel lost in the middle of nowhere.

Everything is hidden behind these hazel eyes.

You left without a goodbye. You left me hanging all alone. And I promise you, I'll fix this. I'll be alright and I'll be me again. :)

PS Vampire Diaries rockssss! Stefan is super duper hawt. Drools*

we're falling apart and coming together again and again;

2011-10-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Never Say Never by The Fray.

HELLO EVERYBAHDY. It's freaking cold here. (as if I'm in some foreign country. It's just KL! -.-) And I don't feel like doing anything right now, except blogging. I have a sudden urge to post all the frogs' pictures. Well, we had to dissect frog as part of our experiment. GUESS WHAT, THE HEART WAS STILL BEATING!! This is my second sin in UCSI, after the rat dissection. Sighs.

Okay, I have a confession. I hate slimy stuffs. Best example; frogs.

Presenting Dr.Serena Lim dissecting the frog! :O

My room mate, Yi Ting. :D

My house mate, Sin Wei. :3

The blurrest girl evaaaaa, Zhen Ning. :P

#1 My buddies! :DD

#2 Awesome people. Heh.

Had so much time to camwhore. I even asked the lecturer to join us but she refused. Sighs, be sporting Miss! >:( More lab sessions to come and yes, I hate doing reports. T_T

It has been a more than a month here. It is as if it was just yesterday Semester Two started. Time flies. I finished two midterms in a week and I have two more, coming real soon. Enjoying every single second of life right now. And I'm really looking forward for a family gathering. I MISS MY FAMILY. I MISS HOME.

if this was a movie.

2011-10-09T01:24:00.001+08:00

It was eight days ago since I last blogged. Wow, that's freaking long. Guess what, Unifi doomed me. Thanks to whoever that we had to move out immediately. Sighs.

The past eight days were very productive. I shifted to a new unit and sat for a quiz! I'll definitely not gonna shift unit anymore. FYI, I did not choose it. We were forced to do so. It was nightmare. To shift those stuffs were one big problem, to clean the house after unpacking was another bigger problem! Definitely not gonna shift anywhere anymore.

Skip the quiz part. Nothing's gonna change anymore the moment I hand in my answer sheet so yeah. I should not worry about stuffs I am not supposed to. ;)

I've learnt; not to put up so much hope on someone, not to trust someone too much, not to lean on someone too long. Because in the end, it's all back to me to get all the pain. Well, I'm speaking from the experience. Hee!

Ps Have a gooooooood Sundayyy! I seriously don't know what time I'm going to sleep today. :/

you & I, we're in this together.

2011-10-01T07:59:00.000+08:00

Just felt like blogging early in the morning.

MORNING EVERYBAHDYYYYYY! :D

Had a great time with the second family on Thursday & Friday night. We dins together on Thursday and went crazy yesterday. All I can say is that, I have crazy brothers and sisters here. Well, if you want to know, I'm the youngest among them. HOHOHO. Proud* I feel so pampered. HOHOHOHOHO :P

PS Off to IELTS class in a bit. Sighs.

eyes on you, eyes on me, we're doing this right :)

2011-09-27T00:58:00.003+08:00

Two PERFECT videos for everyone to watch. It's a must-watch videos. The first video is the original video clip and the second video is the lyrics of the song. You can actually play them together. :D Perfect song by He Is We ft. Owl City. Loving this song to the max and heck, I keep pressing the replaying button! I can say I'm pretty addicted to this song. :O

Lovers dance when their feeling in lovespot lights shining, its all about us its all about us,every heart in the room will melt,this is a feeling I've never feltbut it's all about us

Everyone asked me to move on. Everyone asked me to let go off the past. But hey, I don't live in it. I am moving on. I am letting go. But hey again, the memories are there. The feelings are there. And hey hey, I'm pretty comfortable having these feelings within me. I'm pretty happy to at least know I am in love. I'm pretty sure with myself that I ain't holding on the past, but I'm just holding on the memories and I don't want to let the memories die. Because as long as I am holding on the memories, as long as I feel the love within me, as long as I don't go around crying over my past; I know I'm still alive, I know I'm a human living life just like others, I know I have a heart that is still working perfectly. 'Cause you know, a heart that is pain, that feels love is a heart that is working. So yeah, mine's working perfectly. :P

On an unrelated note, Happy Birthday Googleeeeeeee! :D Thanks for your great service all this while and do continue your services! XD

PS Why do I feel happy and high when I have test/quiz this Wednesday? Guess what subject. ~~Computing Essentials.~~ Bravoooo!
PPS The videos are kinda weird. Because I uploaded it after downloaded it lol. So yeah, weird. Enjoy! :)

and I look for the moon each time I think of you

2011-09-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

Memories are one of the most painful things you can ever think of. Yet, they're the one that make me smile each second I breathe. :)

I would really love to relive all those memories in the past, but no people, I do not want to live in the past anymore. Past is a good place to stop by but definitely not a good place to stay in.

A short update for now. Still learning to edit more pictures using different apps and am still finding the best photography app. Recommendations? :)

remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go;

2011-09-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Iridescent by Linkin Park.

Fact #1 I found this song title by typing "lost in desperation" in Google.com

Fact #2 This is the second song I used a portion of lyrics to find the song title.

Fact #3 I loveeee this song but I've just got the time NOW to find it. And download it.

Fact #4 Epic? :P

It's 1am and I'm still so active right now. The truth is, I am in pain. My leg hurts! Stupid blisters. Stupid leather wedges. Dammit. ): And now I've to put plaster but trust me, it hurts each time I go into bathroom and I open the tap water and the water splashes on my leg. Ahhhh, unbearable pain. Cries pathetically*

Move on to a more interesting topic. I stayed up this late and I am staying up the whole day today for the sake of Messi later. HEE. :D Excited exciteeeeeeed! Good news is I am hyper and I can't sleep. Bad news is I have class at 8am later. Barcelona just gotta win this league game and I'll be the happiest girl on Earth! Perhaps if they win I don't even need to sleep HAHAHAHA. Messi Messi Messi~

Move on, again. I have pretty pretty pictures coming up soon. Pretty pictures are meant to keep and to be uploaded right? I practically have two best camho partners; my niece and nephew. You just have to show your camera, and there they go, smile! :)

Nephew's phone.

Take two!

Niece faking a sleep.

Niece is such a good actress wth! Nephew and I faking bites HAHAHA.

Perfect. ♡

On the other hand, the bad side of staying up late at night, I get emotionally depress very easily. :/ My emotions start shaking with those emo songs bursting in my ears. Sigh. If I could erase those bad memories and keep ONLY the good ones, I could ask no more. But thinking again, what is life without memories? Everything has its pros and cons. Worst part is, we don't even have a choice to want to either forget or remember something. And those memories, are the most hurtful thing you can ever think of when you're sad. On the contrary, if you think it in a happy way, so, well, the memories are good. Lol. Everything depends on what/how you think actually.

Crapping too much in the middle of the night. And nahh, am not emo right now. Found an old Thai drama and heck, I'm kinda addicted to it. Dammit. I am relaxing too much. I'm too relaxed this semester.Well, best part is yet to come; assignments. Pretty sure the lecturers are giving us the assignments next week. And there goes my semester. There goes my fun life. Exaggeration much. :/

Till then, good night to those who're still awake and sweet dreams to those sleeping. ^^

This is me praying that this was the very first page, not where the story line ends. My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again. These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon; I was enchanted to meet you.

Wish you knew I'm still waiting.

and those memories are beautiful till you say goodbye

2011-09-20T14:36:00.001+08:00

I was drifted away by emotion these few days. And I thought I'll be alright the next day. But I was proven wrong. Things get worse as the days pass by. I know I should let it go and not think too much about it. And I tried to ignore as much as I could. I tried expressing what I feel and I find it very helpful to think less about a matter, to ignore what you're supposed to ignore and to share with te people you trust about problems you're having. I've learned to not to care about those who don't care. I've learned that ignorance is a bliss. I've learned that after all, you need at least a friend to be by your side to hear all your rants and I'm glad I have one. :)

To me, my biggest enemy is myself. I've always argue with the inner me about how I should feel or what I should do. It all depends on you whether you want to make things better or worse. I always have this fear of losing friends. Cause I know myself; I trust my friends alot. And when they doomed me, I'd thought I'm not good enough. As I grow, I learned, it's not because of you that your friends turned on you, it's because of the self within them who do not know how to appreciate people. I've never asked anyone to appreciate me. But yeah, at least do know that I'm sincere in this friendship. ~~Unless you're a really useless friend who always backstab and talk bad about people, you deserve my beautiful words too.~~ :D Well, I am still sticking to my "belief" that do not care about those who don't care. This applies to friends too. No point caring for someone who doesn't deserve your attention. It only hurts you more when he/she turns her back on you and have never consider you a friend. Blehh, friends come and go. No worries about getting hurt and getting dumped, it's just another phase in life that you've to go thru'. ;)

I love to type out my thoughts. It's like letting yourself bathe under the rain and the pain just disappear. Still, there are some things or more precise, some kind of feelings which words are unable to describe. To write what I feel and to pour my thoughts in this small space really do help me. Thank you blogspot for lending me your ears whenever I need you. You never fail me. :)

Ps It's so much easier to pour my thoughts from today onwards as I just download this app. I can rant whatever and whenever I want after this. Hee!
Pps Something BIG is coming up after this. :P

if and only if life has an undo button;

2011-09-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

I would go back to the time when I let you pass by me, just like that.

The below picture was taken a week back, if I'm not mistaken. It was in the library and we were all so free + creative to come up with poses. HAHAHA. :D

"Friends are like melons. Shall I tell you why? To find one good, a hundred you must try."

It's going to be the third week of semester two tomorrow. And I'm going to repeat this for the hundredth time that semester two is pretty awesomeeee. :D Except for the lab sessions. D: I quite enjoy the lab sessions but not the reports. And last semester I had only one report to be completed in a week but this semester, two reports in a week! Oh noessssssss.

PS I've learned that thinking too much leads you to nowhere but heartache. So, I'm gonna nap right now and screw Bio test next week. Yay!

PPS Messi scored hatrick (three goals) in yesterday's match, giving Barcelona 8-0 win against Osasuna! Woohooooooooo, I can smile while I sleep. :p

if you could only just stop stop stop running;

2011-09-15T17:59:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Beautiful Like You.

Pictures of good food coming up soon!

I can't remember the names of the food, even my own food lol.

So, just drop by to Theobarama Chocolate Lounge, One Utama! Good food and good ambience! :D

and know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

2011-09-10T15:05:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Stereo Hearts.

It beats for you, Messi, so listen close. :P Yay yay yay, Messi's on action tonight (hopefully!). :D It's the second league game of the new season. And so far, Messi scored in every competition he played. Woots woots. :P

PS Can't wait to watch his skills tonight sharp 12am. :D

The coach and Messi (yellow shirt). :)

This post was supposed to be about Messi only. But I am too lazy to elaborate more and him. As if anyone would read lol. So, what am I up to these days? I would sadly admit that I'm addicted to Tumblr. :O

I reblog:

Nice texts/quotes.

Pretty pictures.

Cute pictures. :D

Hawt stuff. :P

Mouthwatering stuffs. Saliva drops*

And true facts eg. the above picture.

I really thought Tumblr was absurd at first when I signed up for it. I felt like a dummy reblogging pictures. -.- And then, now, I know I am a dummy to think like that. Lol. The pictures/texts/quotes are all so true and Tumblr is a good site for entertainment.

Follow me @ shuwirda.tumblr.com ! :D

there's always something in the way, there's always something getting thru'

2011-09-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying You by Switchfoot.

We had a great time today, in the lab. Yeah, when I say great, I really mean it. Almost puked and die wth. The smell of the rat's intestines and organs are just unbearable. :/

WE DISSECTED A RAT.

The digestive system..... Speechless.

Closer view. The twists and everything is just so..... *insert word(s)*.

Found something interesting and we all went YERRR. A piece of shit.

RIP rat. The colour of the rat reminds me of milk chocolate wth. Pukes*

Somehow, I feel the upcoming lab sessions will be more interesting.

amazing that we got this far, it's like we're chasing all those stars

2011-09-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Secrets by One Republic.

Had this with buddies few days back. I feel like eating it right now. D:

Tired of feeling cheated. Tired of hearing those lies. Tired of being the one that is always hurt. Tired of being the victim. I am tired of being the only one to think of everyone's feelings when they don't even think of mine. I am just so tired of thinking of others when me, myself and I is more important.

It feels kinda sad and depress to think of the past; it still hurts. I've got to remind myself always that I'm fully recovered. Well, I am but the scars.... are still there. I am normal. :P

Hearing sad and meaningful songs/lyrics seriously don't help at all. -.- I need something like.... urmm, FRIDAY FRIDAY GOTTA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY! Heck yeah. *imitates Rebecca Black's voice *epic fail

and I didn't want this day to come but now all I feel is numb

2011-09-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Unfriend You by Greyson Chance.

So it's over yeah we're through, so Imma unfriend you You're the best liar ever knew, so Imma unfriend you cause I should have known, right from the start I'm deleting you right from my heart Yeah it's over, my last move is to unfriend you

First and foremost, happy belated independence day Malaysia! LOL I know I'm late 6 days but yeah, better late than never. :P I've a very patriotic parents. Points below* :)

MALAYSIA BOLEH :D

As you know, second day of Eid (if I'm not mistaken) falls on Indenpende Day too. Went to Zarifah's open house in the morning till afternoon. FOOOOOOOOOOOD. Grins*

Ok, I'm so lazy to write the captions. Curry chicken and peanut gravy (kuah kacang) with all sorts of delicious food. I loveeeeeeeeeeeee the foooooooood. :D

PS Second day of college and I still feel pretty awesome after the first bio lecture. I must be crazy or something. :O
PPS HELLOOOOOOOO MERLIN. ^^

there's something about you now, I can't quite figure out

2011-09-06T09:32:00.002+08:00

*Scheduled post

#nowplaying You and Me by Lifehouse.

Note: The upcoming three pictures are taken from tumblr. :)

Throughout my 17 years, 8 months and 6 days, I learnt a lot from all the things that happened. And everything I learnt are written above. Love, lies, hurt, lost,....... I guess I'm kinda used to have all sorts of feelings at once. Well, I shall just assume that I'm going through the adolescence phase heh.

And today when I think about the past, I am not regretting anything about it (except when I made my Mom cried lol). Everything that happened has its own reasons and everything happened made me who I am today. But yeah, after I made my Mom cried and we didn't talk for days or weeks not sure, after that our relationship got closer day by day. :) And that's when I believed everything happened for a reason. I was very sad and depress when I lost my first love, but thinking of the past, it is really a nice place to visit but definitely I'm not staying in it. Life has got to move on right? Perhaps my Mr.Right is still somewhere finding his Mrs.Right, so yeah, I ain't missing the past but it was good memories and experience. I am proud that I am still here, standing high up and be who I am without pretending. I love myself. :3

People always say never follow your heart as it leads you to somewhere which is nowhere. Well, to me, I believe in my instincts. It's not like I have sixth sense (if I do, I would be staying with David Blaine wth) but my instincts never fail me, so far. Follow your heart, always. Cause when you ain't sure about something and if you force yourself to follow someone's else advice, it's like lying to yourself. Don't you feel so? Hmm. :/ Heart is always right. At least mine is right.

I've found myself in forever.

cause it's you and me and all of the peoplewith nothing to do nothing to proveand it's you and me and all of the peopleand I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

but i've grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms

2011-09-05T18:24:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri

And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart

First day of college is pretty awesome. We had only one class in the morning. Then we came back and had a nap and went out lunch. It is as if today is holiday lol. It's a good start to our new semester anyway. We had our timetable arranged and we went to the correct class and everything about college is fine so far. Well, hope it lasts longer though I know the awesome feeling will fade once the real lecture classes start. Let's just hope this whole week will be about briefing lol. :D

We were too free that we could actually camhoed. Woohooooooo.

I assumed that you guys know who are they above. HAHAHA.

I don't understand why I've grown fatter day by day though we walked to-and-fro college EVERYDAY. Sigh. I need to seriously stop eating so much chocolate. -____________- But I just bought a bottle of chocolates in Giant yesterday. Epic fail. :/

Wish everyday is like today. Good start to my new sem. Hello Semester Two! ^^

you know that it's over when the burnin' and the yearning inside your heart ain’t there anymore

2011-09-04T03:08:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying It's Over by Jesse McCartney.

I am pretty sleepy right now but shall update my blog since it's not taking me so long. Back to the busy town. Yeah, at this hour, I can still hear the noises from vehicles outside my condo. BUSY LORR. It's 3AM people, what are you people doing outside on the road?! Go back and sleep. Duhh. -.-

PS Shall update moreeee. Picturessss coming up sooooon. :D
PPS It feels weird to go back to college after weeks of holidays........ :/

Cuz it’s over girl you know it’s over this time So when you call I’m pressin 7 don’t wanna hear your messages messages I’m trying erase you from my mind

but now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes.

2011-08-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Last Kiss by Taylor Swift.

The words that you whispered
For just us to know
Told me you loved me
So why did you go away?

"sitting here crying because she took the words right out of my mouth." That was one of the comments which have 93 likes and I just liked it HEHEHE.

****

Went back hometown, Perlis for few days. Came back yesterday to watch my Messi. <3 And that explains why I did not blog for days. I don't remember what I did there though it was just few days back. Lol. I just love the cooling wind and that, my mind is so peaceful. :)

Been thinking of the rabbits my uncle got from somewhere. My niece told me the rabbits were dead and that she killed them. And I blindly believed that 2 year old girl. -__________-

The rabbits are so fat and sooooo pretty. :D 3 old rabbits and a big fat baby rabbit. :O

The week is coming to an end real soon. I know it's only Tuesday today. But but but, time passes real fast, don't you think? :/ Hate the fact that I have to go back KL and reorganize myself for Sem Two which is starting this coming MONDAY. D: Gotta work EXTRA harder. Screw you results. ):

guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

2011-08-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

Was planning to post something random with a pic of me but guess everyone is so tired of my picture in every post. I am tired of looking at my own picture lol. So, went through the folders AGAIN to see if I'd miss out any interesting pictures to blog. And yeah, I succeed! :D

"Happy advanced bieber birthday, Zhen Ning."

PS She's a belieber. ONLY after she watched Never Say Never. WTH!

Sorry for the twisted picture lol. If I rotate, it would be worse. Anyways, it was Zhen Ning's 18th birthday on the 18th August. But we (the awesome housemates) were all back in hometown on her birthday so we decided to throw her a surprise party (if it was called a party lol) on our last day of Semester One after our last paper. We are really good at surprises. We had three different types of surprises for three different birthday girls in that three months of college life!

It wasn't easy. Usually it took 15-20 minutes if you walk normally from the college back to condo. But because this was a surprise, we had to reach condo earlier than the birthday girl. So, we ran and reached in 10 minutes or less! Sin Wei and I called up Domino's for delivery while Yi Ting and Serena bought the cake from Secret Recipe. Chong Yan's job was to delay the time as long as possible. And when the birthday girl; Zhen Ning opened the door, we just boomed her with a birthday song HAHAHA. You should really see her surprised face. Double lol. :D

PS You gotta admit we can make a good drama team lolol.

Random picture found in tumblr. Follow me! Click!*

500th; memories

2011-08-26T03:31:00.000+08:00

HOLA. Finally changed the skin after months. I am satisfied. :D Oh oh, it's my 500th post too! Gosh, didn't know I write alot. HAHAHA. Celebrating the 500th post with a new skin. Wulalala~

A very old picture of me, taken probably 4 months ago? Well, not very old. But yeah, the transformation. There's a naughty feeling in me that nags me to curl my hair once again after looking at those pictures. I really do have itchy brain wth. But, thinking of how dry my hair can be (as you see above) and how my Mom insisted me not to curl anymore, I finally decided not to. Sigh. I've always liked curls or waves. Too bad, it doesn't suit me. :/ Anyways, am not going to stick with the same hair style for the rest of my life. For goodness sake, I need some transformations too! Lol. Perhaps someday the wavy or the curls will suit me. Heh. It's not wrong being optimistic aight? (:

Everyone must be sleeping so soundly at this hour. WTH am I doing here?! -.- Gotta hit the sack very very soon. Gonna be a loooooong day today. And tomorrow as in Saturday, back to my home sweet village! Can't wait to inhale fresh air after months stuck in a dusty city, lol. :D

Just when I thought everything will be fine, DOOM!

it's as if you never left

2011-08-24T16:08:00.001+08:00

Stereo Hearts rockssss. Adam Levine is sho hawt.

My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note oh oh.

"This melody was meant for you."

As I grew older, I realised a thing. I get to know more types of people and get to see things in different perceptions, according to the situation. How funny when you thought you know someone really good but the then she/he turns out to be someone you never knew; someone she/he once said will never be. I've to keep myself reminded that people change as time passes.

As I stay further from everyone I love, I felt something. It wasn't homesick. But I just miss everything back home. And when I get home, I feel good. Everyone you love cares for you and pamper you just like a baby. I love this feeling. (: Even when I'm having the hardest time of life (experienced something recently that was shockening and was partly my fault), I am glad that my Dad still comes to me and slaps my shoulder saying, "It's okay. You are fine." That was when my tears rolled down and trust me, I feel nothing but love. I'll never forget how they raised me up that I'm now here, leaving footprints on the road to success. I love my family.

Remember, when everything/everyone fails you, 2 person will be there for you. Your family and God. One can be seen and can be talked to and one more to be feel in our hearts. (:

and I had a dream come true

2011-08-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

Was transferring pics from the DSLR and reorganize my pics in lappie. Found out that I haven't blog about cousin's wedding which was last few months. :O

The wedding was on 10th and 11th June. It was a Friday and a Saturday. Had to rush back from Kay Elle on the Friday night to attend the wedding. :/

I think I reached village about 12 midnight. I was expecting everyone to be sleeping soundly as next day will be super busy. But guess what, I was welcomed warmly. Everyone was awake and still hyper. The male were gambling and the female were busy manicuring and pedicuring wth. And I slept at 4AM gossiping with the cousins. Woke up at 6AM. Life's good.

Everyone cramped into the room for make-up an hairdo. It was like a mini temporary saloon.

I really wonder where and what was I doing when they were camwhoring. :/

But managed to camho with the cousin too at last. ^^

Family picture before leaving to bride's house. (:

Brother as the male flower(?) on the left and the groom on the right.

The couple. :3

Love this picture. Shall frame it up heh. :D

Loved my hair style on that day. My hair stylist was the bride's hair stylist heh. Simple and niceeee. (:

Well, I know it's too late but congrats coussie! <3 I really love weddings despite the tiredness and the loads of work. But everyone from all over the world came back and it was a great gathering. It was a really great wedding. >:)

Everything happens for a reason.

And I'm wondering what.

it lasted forever and ended too soon;

2011-08-23T01:39:00.000+08:00

Listening to Mandy Moore - Cry.

Good day peeps. It's 1:18AM when I start blogging. Let's see how long do I take to create a post heh. Too much distractions with YouTube and Facebook in another tabs. Distractions distractions. :/

It took me quite some time to realise how things actually work. And now that I know things work this way, I shall stick to this way. It just simply show me that I actually need to be more flexible and think wider in order to get something done perfectly. Just like life. Life won't get any easier as you grow older. It gets tougher. You've more choices and of course, plenty of hard decisions to do. Be more flexible and think wisely. I am so glad that during my hard times, I've got so many people standing right behind me holding my back. This way, life is so much more easier. (:

I've never cared what is the real meaning of love. Everyone has their own opinion when it comes to love. I strongly agree when people say love is blind. I've been there, I've felt it, I've been through it. And it wasn't a bad experience after all. It makes me a lil more stronger and be more careful in falling in love later. Well, there are times when you hear some sad love songs and there you go crying your eyes out. It happens. It happened. But it is all over. I'm done with the past. (:

Just felt like writing what I wanted to lol. Just wrote whatever that crossed my mind. Love the randomness. And I think I've got this thing of blogging late at night or past midnight. Wth. It's 1.38AM. Can't wait to watch Messi in approximately 52 minutes. :D

It was then that I realised that forever was in your eyes.

when "you" don't exist anymore, hello to "me"

2011-08-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

Hello folks. :) It has been quite some time aight? I wouldn't blame my laziness this time. I've got pretty good reasons to be away this time. Heh, had a quality family time during the weekends and had a greatttt time babysitting my niece, as usual. I'd lie if I said life's good all the while. There was one moment of today where my eyes got wet and screw you stupid lens. WTH. Other than that, I can assure you life's pretty awesome with me. :D

It felt so good to be away from everything for a short while. I had my mind rested and it feels good to be new brand new after so long. Went Hat Yai on Saturday afternoon. Had a great time filling up the tummy and spending money. Well, I was lying about the second part. I wish money is like plucking leaf from the tree. T.T

After so long pretending to be someone I am not, I finally found myself in the darkest hole. I was so afraid things would go wrong if I do something I wanted to; I was so afraid I might hurt someone I love if I say things in my mind; I was so afraid I might be alone if I chose to be who I am, but then, I realised, people will love you for who you are and not for who you're pretending to be. At one moment, I feel as if I'm pretending. And at the other moment, I feel this is who I am. Where will this feelings bring me to? Nowhere. The truth is, I am who I am today. There's no way to turn back time and change. And right now, I pretty sure I know myself better than anyone else does.

Why do you go around faking a smile when no one cares what you're doing?
Why do you go around crying when no one bothers to ask why?
Why do you go around telling lies when no one cares to know the truth?
Why do you go around, walking and talking with people you actually don't feel like to?

We cared too much about others' opinions.
We cared too much about others' thoughts.
We cared too much about others' thinking.
We cared too much about others when we ourselves are having conflict within us.

I can finally stand in the middle of the crowd and shout to the world, "This is who I am" and not bother what others think/say/talk. I've found myself after years. (: It's not that I don't know myself for the past years, it's just that I feel more comfortable in being myself and enjoy every single bit of my life now. I feel me in myself.

It'll always remain as memories.

2011-08-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

Sem One ended on Thursday. To be precise, at sharp 1 pm. HEHEHE. We had a great time watching movies and series the whole freaking day. Watched Beastly & A Walk To Remember with the buddies. This is just the beginning people. We have the rest of the month to enjoyyy life before back to nerding in Sept! :D

Thursday was movies day. & Friday was shopping day! Had lunch in Low Yat then spent the rest of the day exploring Times Square. Wish time could stop and money started dropping like the rain so I could buy the whole freaking mall. Wth.

Me & SinWei. :3

Yi Ting, Sin Wei and I.

Me, Chong Yan and Yi Ting.

PS We all have this thing for caps/hats. XP

Dinner @ Zhia's Kitchen Restaurant. Felt like a happy family sitting in a big round table plus we ordered dinner set. Lol!

Sin Wei and Chong Yan.

Chong Yan and I.

Our food!

Last but not least, the group picha! <3

Woohoooooooo, I can finalleh sleep on my own bed, after two weeks! :D Hello, Penang. (:

Friends are born, not made.

2011-08-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

"A friendship founded on business is better than a business founded on friendship." -John D. Rockefeller

Have you ever sit down and think about your friends? Or you just didn't bother? It's a very subjective topic when it comes to Friends. I still can't define the word friend. To me, friends are just friends. He/she/they helps/help you when you're in hardships and when you need them. But oh well, tell me is it true that you have your friends beside you 24/7 whenever you're in pain, whenever you're in dilemma? Hmmm, I am pretty sure that friends are not there all the time when you need them. UNLESS she/he/they is/are true friends whom I believe is one in a million. Be proud if you really have one GOOD and TRUE friend. Cause that's where I lack of. I lack of a true friend who I can turn on to and tell all my dirty little secrets. I am just afraid of being hurt, by a friend; a friend whom I once called a "true" friend and at last walked away from me at my hardest moment. I am just not too brave enough when it comes to feelings. Because when it hurts, it hurts you deeply. And those good moments were just memories.... I need to be stronger. Life will not be any easier.

'True friends stab you in the front.' -Oscar Wilde

I'd always believe that everyone has been back-stabbed at least once in their lives. And so, this concludes that every single person on Earth is a backstabber. I'm not the exception. No one is. What differs us is our intention in doing so; good or bad, for the sake of happiness or for the sake of selfishness. Well, I've been back-stabbed few times. It didn't hurt much but it did hurt. I got over it few days later though. Cause you know,..... I never kept any friends in my true friends list. You stab, you walk away, I move on. It's so much easier said than done but life has to move on. I'd always prefer this way of living life; never let anyone got my trust too much and never let tears accompany me when I've problems with friends. Cause good friends don't worth your tears. And the one who is worth your tears are those who won't make you cry. (:

Thinking and talking about friends, I'm still glad that I've many friends by my side whenever I'm down. I can't deny that sometimes, friends is all you need when shit happens. And shits do happen, always. :/ Thank you, friends.

You do not need to find who your real friends are. Cause real friends are born and not made. I did not give up in adding anyone to my true friend list, I'm just not used to have he/she/them. I don't expect anything from anyone, I tried hard to. Cause in the end of the day, when they were not as you expected, your heart is broken again. The best solution is do what you can as a friend and help your friends in need without wanting anything in return. If they do something good and something pleasant to you as a friend, smile. Cause you're actually considered a friend to the person too. (:

I actually feel pretty good after writing all this. >:)

PS Friends are just friends. I'm still trusting me, myself & I as the best friend of myself. Nothing's gonna change that. At least I know me being the best friend of myself won't get me hurt and I know I can count on myself, always.

PPS I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO WHERE I BELONG.

Ridiculous.

2011-08-03T03:03:00.001+08:00

Goodness, I'm still awake at this hour. Yes, it's 3am now! WTH. I'm awake with @yitingc and @xerrynna. They're crapping and we're laughing like no one's business. Seriously, I need to go to bed. -__________-

PS Domo was reading Bio! Points above*

Screw everything . Screw uni/college life. SCREW LIFE.

Her big day. (:

2011-08-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

It was the nerd's birthday yesterday! OPS. Yi Ting. :D (So sorry for not able to post on your birthday.)

If you can't read, let me write it down here.

"Hello Kitty, Harry Porter (the fella wrote wrongly), Pokemon Addict/ Bio Nerd/ CYT/ YiTing. <3"

We woke her up sharp 12 midnight yesterday with a birthday song. It was so epic. Stares at Serena* Serena was with her lappie on her lap, with a youtube video playing over and over again, the birthday song. HAHAHA. Epic much! Well, that was her first surprise. Grins*

Her second surprise was the birthday cake! Serena and Chong Yan went to toilet and came in Pizza Hut with a huge cake. CHOCOLATE INDULGENCE. My favorite wth! :P The birthday girl was like,..... "Wow, go toilet produce cake?" HAHAHA.

It won't be a complete blog post without the blogger's face right? xP

Anyways, happy belated birthday CYT! We lub youuuuuu! Blows kisses*

Enchanted.

2011-07-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

It was a day out for us the other day! Yeah, I know, AGAIN. XD

UCSI organized WOW! Food Fair @ Empire Mall, Subang past few weeks.On a Sunday. We took this opportunity to inhale KL fresh air since our midterms ended on Saturday, a day before the event. The food fair was good. SO PACK. And we actually went around the mall too. :D Shop shop shop~

#1 In the bus.

#2 In the bus.

Top is with our Maths lecturer and below is with the Stats lecturer.

Yeah, this is the blog post all about. Lol. Finals is just around the corner. I can barely breathe. Midterms was just FEW weeks ago and now Finals. Life is sooooooooooo mean.

PS Gonna get back my football life!Pre-season has started! Barcelona just won Audi Cup! It was friendly match. Messi is having holidays till 8th August. Can't wait to see him play~ :D GO MESSI. GO BARCELONA. Blows kisses*
PPS Tomorrow will be the end of SEMESTER ONE classes. Break for a week. And Finals. And holidays!!!!!! OH YAY.

This is real.

2011-07-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

Feels sooooo much better being at home; the one and only place I belong to. Everything seems to be so good and so right here; with all your loved ones. I feel so COMFORTABLE.

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK KAY ELLE. >:(

If I die young~

2011-07-18T19:05:00.001+08:00

Hello! This is me! Points above* HEHEHE. :D It feels so nice to see his name in my blog. ;) Well, no worries, this post is not gonna be about him. Again, pictures of me and my friends. All were taken today during lunch. I am a free bird~ We are free birds~

Sin Wei.

Serena.

Chong Yan.

Yi Ting. Guess what was she doing? READING BIO. UGH. NERD.

AND THIS IS ME. MUAHAHAHA.

K FINE. I know I am lame. Blehh.

Hello from the blogger! :)

PS The title of the post is totally unrelated to the whole post. Inner joke*

PSS I can smell Penangggggggggggggg. Hopefully no extra classes this weekend. Crosses fingers*

Runaway.

2011-07-17T18:59:00.002+08:00

Life after ALL the midterms is so freakinggggggggggg lovely! I'm 3 episodes away from the last episode of Vampire Diaries Season One. Spent my whole freaking night of yesterday watching vampiressss. Ahh, how I love my life now. >:) ~~Screw Finals.~~

Great, pictures of me and my friends last week after our Moral presentation.

From left; Chong Yan, Sin Wei & Yi Ting.

From left; Serena & Yours Truly. :)

It feels so weird to wear formal clothes.. And I didn't like it. Lol.

Just to tempt you all. HEHE. My milk tea on the right! I can see pearlsssss!

Sometimes you need to stop doing what you're doing and enjoy the ride.
Sometimes you need to stop pretend too much and be who you really are.
Sometimes you need to stop thinking which is right, which is wrong and just do what you really want to do.

Cause nothing else matters but you, yourself and only you. Live for yourself, not for others. :)

Vampire Diaries.

2011-07-15T17:28:00.000+08:00

Vampires are just my thing you know. Somehow and anyhow, they just got something related to me. I just love vampires! :D

Vampire Diaries is sooooooooo addictive I tell you. I wasn't really interested in watching in when it was on tv previously. Because I had this feeling that they copied Twilight Saga lolwth. I don't even bother looking at the advertisement when I first saw it. And now,...... I'm hooked to it. Thanks to whoever that I suddenly have the urge to watch the whole series. It started few weeks after I settled down here. I'm still stuck in Season One, fyi. Barely have time to watch everything/one episode per day due to college. Back-to-back exams. And tomorrow is the LAST midterm paper. CAN'T WAIT.

I know everyone is loving Damon instead of Stefan. I love both of them but somehow, Stefan caught my attention. He looks like someone I know. He looks like....... Hmm, forget it.

Gonna resume episode 12 tomorrow, after the LAST midterm paper! :D:D:D:D

PS Someone is hooked to Pretty Little Liars~ Ahem. :P

PSS My player is uber nice! Can take screen shot and so on. Subtitles auto-load. Uberrrrrr cool!

I wish someone could tell me a reason why college life is fun.

Cause I don't seem to be enjoying a tiny bit of it.

Treasure Inn.

2011-07-10T03:33:00.000+08:00

Went for a midnight show to watch this movie. Definitely not regretting it. :)

Treasure Inn.

Awesome movie. Everything is in there; love, jokes, actions and of course, moral values. You just can't deny how hawt is Nicholas Tse in this movie. He smiled! And he looked very good. :)

PS It's 3.30AM and I feel so awesome for sleeping so late. Well, Bio drove me up and down the walls. Hmmm. Things get very tough at times. Or maybe, MOST of the time. Time to hit the sack. NIGHTS.

Wedding Dress.

2011-07-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

I'll blog about cousin's wedding after my midterms! So, stay tuned people! :D

PS My midterms ends on 16th July. Two weeks to crack the brain!

Love You Like A Love Song.

2011-07-02T11:03:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I went and search for Selena Gomez's song's lyrics. WTH. x)

Midterms and quizzes are around the corner. Sacrificed the weekend to study. But look, my "study". HAHAHA. Rejected my Bro's offer to go my cousin's house yesterday. And that means I can't see my niece!!!! >:( Gotta study these two freaking days and go visit her on Monday evening! Ugh. Screw you midterms! T_T

I didn't know what picture to post up here. Many pictures but they're meant for different blog posts. And heck, this blog post is produced within 10 minutes. ONLY. Yeah, imagine how fun blogging can be.

PS I suggest you to go and hear Selena Gomez's song. Go and hear. And off. LOL.

Back to books. Let's burn Biology books after the Finals.

I want you to know.....

2011-06-29T14:56:00.000+08:00

The previous weeks have been good to me. When I say good, it's really good. Perhaps I'm getting used to the whole new life of college/uni. Isn't that good? Heh. But well, when the dooms day (exams etc) come, I know I'll start ranting about how hateful I am to this life. Bla bla bla... Things are always like that, right? Ups and downs in life. But one thing for sure, I still miss my parents and family each day I'm here. I wanna go backkkkkk to where I belongggggg. >:( Here starts the ranting....... XP

Let's get distracted by the emo-ness. Move on, me and my roommates finally renovated the whole freaking master room into some kind of design we actually like. I like it though heh. Thanks to my brilliant idea. :P

I'm just spreading Messi's love in the rooooom. Lalala~~

PS Messi's favourite colour is RED.

We can now sleep together-gether. Winks*

The awesome roommates. :D

To be the truth, I actually wanted to blog about football regarding the first picture above. On an unrelated note, anyone who has Messi's poster, please kindly give me. Imma fill this whole room with Messi's love! Stares at the roommates* XD It turned out that I just felt like blogging about my awesome friends and roommates instead of football. Next post is gonna be about football heh. :P

I want you and you and you and you and you to know that you guys have been a very good and motivating housemates since day one. Let's just continue karaoke every night because it seems like the neighbours do not care... HAHAHA.

Disaster..

2011-06-25T09:21:00.000+08:00

It was supposed to be a happy Saturday where I can sleep till 9 or 10 am in the morning, where I can roll on the bed and laze on the bed... But it turns out that we have 5 freaking hours of extra classes. 2 hours of Statistics followed 3 hours of Maths. 5 freaking hours.... How to survive?! Nescafe isn't working for me. To be short, caffeines are not suitable for me. I sleep even longer after drinking caffeine-contained drinks. WTH. -.-

I just want today to be over and I can breathe again tomorrow..... I miss my family. >:(

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.

2011-06-24T20:18:00.000+08:00

Now listening to Way Back into Love.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine;
I've been searching but I don't see the signs

Went to Elizabeth Hotel one of those weekends in KL. Parents actually come down KL almost every weekend now. Let's just cross fingers they'll come this week. :D Screw extra classes that I can't go back. Ugh.

Super love the scenery/view from our room/hotel.

Had late lunch that day (as far as I could remember) before swimming. Heh.

Everything was so perfect the other day when we were all together. It's so nice to view again and again those pictures of those days; laughing at each other's pictures and expressions and recalling all those memories. Perfect is the right word to describe everything right now. :)

"Stop worrying and start living". I'm happy with the life I'm living right now. Except those freaking exams coming soon. -.- Can't wait for semester break. And oh Daddy, where's my car..? XP

Best Thing I Never Had.

2011-06-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/beyonce/best_thing_i_never_had.html ]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

Lightning strikes the heart; it goes off like a gun;

2011-06-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

Now Listening to Brighter Than The Sun.

The week has begun. Monday is coming to an end. Tuesday will be next. When is Friday coming?! Ugh. I feel so the miserable; counting days and waiting for the weekends. I suppose to enjoy college life, right? But it seems to be so hard to smile when all you got is your lappie and not your family. :( Bla bla bla, Shuwirda is so pampered, talking about her parents everyday, missing her parents everyday bla bla bla. Well, people, if you have a heart, you'll feel what I feel. If you don't..... Too bad. Can't help it. :P

Move on, I finally watch Red Riding Hood yesterday with the buddies!! :D It was awesome people. AWESOME!!!! Well, the most awesome person is Shiloh Hernandez! Or Peter in the movie. HE IS UBER HAWT.

Presenting you my new boyfriend oh yeah! Grins*

He looked so suspicious in the movie. And we actually thought he was the werewolf. Lol. My heart was in pieces until Valerie's Dad confessed he's the werewolf. Looool. It was like Twilight moments once again! And Shiloh Hernandez actually look QUITE alike Robert Pattinson in the movie. Oh noessss! I can't wait for Breaking Dawn now!!!!!!!! :D

Anyways, the movie was really awesome. Rating: 9/10. Recommend you guys to watch if you guys haven't watch!

****

You can't punish yourself into change. You can't whip yourself into change. But you can love yourself into well-being.

Sometimes,

words are not enough to

express what I actually feel

for you.

It was meant to be.

2011-06-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, Happy Father's Day to my beloved Daddy! Blows kisses*

I actually thought I would miss this year's Father's Day. I was kinda sad. But heck, Dad & Mom made a surprise instead of me giving them a surprise. They are amazing parents I tell you. Without plans, they just drive all the way to KL from Penang on a Saturday, for fun. Huh, I've cool parents. How epic those moments where my parents came in laughing and I was giving the :O look. Hugged them and cried. I really miss those moments. Wish KL and Penang are neighbours and that I could meet them every week. >:(

I could never ask for more whenever I've all my loved ones around me. The luckiest girl is not the one who has all the things on Earth but the one who has the parents' love. Well, I can say I am one of the luckiest girls. Love you, Mom and Dad.

Happy Father's Day!

All I can ever wish for is for you to live a longer and prosper life. Keep up being a cool and awesome dad! :)

Come on, let your colors burst.

2011-06-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

Now Listening to Firework by Katy Perry.

Finalleh it's Friday people. Finalleh!!! I can finalleh rest from classes and tutorials. Unfortunately, exams/tests/midterms are around the corner. Everything is at the highest speed now. ~~EXCEPT FOR MY INTERNET CONNECTION. WTH.~~ And guess what? I have got Moral midterm tomorrow and look at what I'm doing now. -.- Ugh, addition of bad news, Maths test is also tmrw. HAHAHA Imma go suicide now. Yay! D: Shall burn the midnight oil. Ugh.

Anyways, did I mention that Biology Lab is soooooooo fun..? Fun when it comes to experiments. Hell when it comes to reports. Screw Bio reports. Never gonna get full marks ugh. >:(

Btw, it's our second time entering lab today. The experiments are fun fun fun. :D

Super cool microscope. Well, CBM don't have this. -.-

The lab assistant. :D

Methylene blue if I'm not mistaken.

Feel so pro doing this! XD

One of the experiments. So pretty! :D

The whole lab.

What's a blog post without the blogger's picture? HEHEHE. :P

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?Do you ever feel, feel so paper-thin, like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Time passes, things change, feelings change.

2011-06-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

Hello folks. :) It has been quite sometime since I really blog about something personal; about myself. There's too much inside that there are no words to describe them. Three weeks staying in a whole new place. And I got to admit that I am still learning how to adapt to this whole new life. It's not tough, when you have your high school friends with you, that's what people say, but, do you always cry yourself to sleep even when you have your Mom beside you? That's how things go... I could not ask for more but having those friends when I'm in need. But but but.... I still miss home. I still miss Mom and Dad. And I miss them every night when I've my dinner. >:( Tell me I'm not homesick. I just miss my parents. And I just wish they could be nearer to me; cooking for me everyday, buying me all my needs and pamper their big girl. Cries* Ugh, you won't want to hear how much I miss everything back then. Trust me, you won't want.

I'll be alright. I'll move on. 5 years to live an independent life. I can do it! Punches fist into air* :D

Writing those things up there, do you often cry yourself in sleep? I really wonder if I'm the only one with the "disease" or it's normal..? I need someone to tell me I'm normal and that she/he does cry to bed every night. Lol. Tell me people. :X

People always say first love is hard to forget. Why do I feel the same? Lolwth. I was just being random.. Hahahaha. I guess I've lose interest in guys oh noessss! Or maybe Mr.Right hasn't step out yet? Oh yeaaaa, Nice Guys finish last. :P The best part of life is yet to come rightttt? :) Nahh, ain't desperate to have someone. No commitment and I gotta admit that the burden of studying this year is freaking high! I didn't know that college life would be this tough. Especially under JPA where you have to compete for ALMOST everything! Marks, placing, position, and bla bla bla.. It's either you do it or you die! Either you get it or you're done! :O Kk, I'm gonna stop frightening myself. But this is how this uni/college and this JPA thingy works. Fight now or die. Let's all work harder for a better future. >:)

To be the truth, I did not finish ranting. HAHAHAHA. Was half-way distracted. Too many things running in my mind. Shall continue ranting in next post! And oh, I blog today instead of weekends! At last I can have some time for myself and for my lappie! :D

PS I screwed Biology test. Awesome.
PPS Midterms in few weeks time! Awesomeeeeeeee. Can I die? Ugh.

Back in action!

2011-06-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

I'll be back in blogsphere soon!!! But heck, these coming two days (Thursday & Friday) are busy days. I'll blog during the weekends! My fingers have had more than enough rest from typing. I finally regain my blogging spirit! :D ~~Hope it does not lasts for only today. DX~~

I miss you..

Over and over again.

A Day To Remember.

2011-06-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

How I miss my both niece and nephew. Oh nooooooessss! T_T And btw, nephew is behind there in the picture. I think he accidentally drank the water. Lol. Niece is so freaking cute in the swim suit. She looked so fat and chubby muahahaha! :D

It was a day to remember. Indeed.

Family Time.

2011-06-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

The title explains it all. One happy family. <3

The Friends.

2011-05-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

These are my buddies. Staying in the same unit now heh. :D But too bad, one housemate is missing. She went back her home. And the missing is Zhen Ning. >:( Btw, let me introduce you guys. The girl in green in the middle is me. LOL. On your left is Serena and on your right is Sin Wei. Sitting down with the specs is Chong Yan and without the specs is Yi Ting. :)

Kkkkk, I'm done blogging. Yay? -.-

PS Biology is killing me softly. KILLING ME!

You'll never know.

2011-05-28T10:50:00.000+08:00

I didn't know what to feel anymore, for the first time.

Sharing with you guys a video. One of my favourite Thai songs. The title is Kwam Aun Ae which menas Failure. And the singer is Boy Peacemaker. So sorry that this video has no subtitle. The original video with the subtitle has been removed, I don't know why. And I can't translate everything to you guys lol. Just enjoy watching the MV okayyyy. XD.

The failure I have today make me scared. I'm asking for some time to make myself ready for this.....

Skype.

2011-05-27T13:22:00.000+08:00

Skypers, add me! Ask me lahh actually lol. :D

The pictures are too small and too blur. I miss them!!!!!!!!! T________T

I will get over this.

For real.

Princess Via big's day.

2011-05-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Before I even start the post, there's a family photo excluding me above. Heh. We were celebrating Princess Via's birthday. Well, she's my niece and we usually call her by the name Via. So, it was her 2nd birthday on the 21st of May which was also my registration day in UCSI. Looool. Lucky that we were allowed to go and come back as we wish to, to the condo (Angkasa Condominium) we stayed nearby. Hee! Went back to cousin's house which is 15mins distance from UCSI after registration for the lil girl's birthday. >:)

The birthday girl was too busy watching tv. -.-

Mom bought her this pretty dress just for her birthday. So cuteeee! :D

Wrongly spelled name. It is supposed to be Archara Vianessa.

People normally prays after birthday song but she prays before HAHAHA!

Blows*

The birthday girl. <3

Choc Mud Cake. Just like what we had on my Dad's birthday. Awesome!

She's just TWO and she has got Secret Recipe cake for her birthday! When I was two, I don't think Secret Recipe even open yet lololol. Exaggerated much huh. Anyways, happy belated birthday cutie! :3 I watched you grow in these two years and I'm watching you grow everyday. I feel like a mother HAHAHA. Wth.

So it's ELEVEN and I'm so freaking sleepy. Woke up at 6am today wth. Rants rants rants..... Good night!

At this hour, we were supposedly be together

but we are not.

Not even physically or mentally.

I started missing you.

Sighhhhhhh.

2011-05-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

It's second day of college and I just feel like ranting here. Oh noooos! And the best part is we're free today as in tutorials are cancelled but I still feel like ranting! Lahhh. :/ The distance to the campus from the hostel is just killing me everyday. So very the far. T____T And we walked to-and-fro for about 4 times already today! Trust me, I just had my butt sited in the room now since morning. So, imagine...... There're no classes but we're so busy buying stuffs and everything. What if there are classes...? Like tmrw. :O Classes from morning till noon. Ohhhhhh nooooooooooooooos!!!!! Cries pathetically*

PS If you realize, I was ranting.. And it was just part of it. DX More to come! 5 years people, 5 years! Lahhh.....
PPS I miss the kids My Mom's cook! My family! I miss having dinner at night with the whole family and just talk random stuffs...... I miss Penang already.... Sigh.

Working out.

2011-05-22T18:47:00.000+08:00

Let me present you guys with ZZhen Zhang!!!!!!!! He shooo the very hawt. :D He's a Singaporean artist btw.

Sin Wei.

Harry.

Wai Kit.

Didn't know first day walking around the campus would turn out to be so great hahahahaha. On the other hand, class is starting tmrw. Oh noooooos. Me wanna kai kai. T_____T

Hello from the big city.

2011-05-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

My title explains it all. Sigh, the new place and the huge city is so boohoo! :( I miss my Momma and Daddy. T___T They left after breakfast just now and huh, here am I in cousin's house blogging. Going back to apartment soon, meeting up with Sin Wei and few friends for lunch and just hang out for the rest of the day. But yeah, am SUPER DUPER lucky to have few of my schoolmates here with me. FUHHH. That's the good part. :)

I wonder when will I meet the kids again. Sigh!

The food here looks so promising, to be the truth. Felt like eating everything available here. Too many food shops. But one major problem is the Negros here. Oh, they look so gangster-ish and trust me, I don't know how am I going to go up and down using the lift ALONE later. :O I can die............

PS McD is just right in front of apartment! Hee!! XD

Pizza Hut.

2011-05-19T19:22:00.000+08:00

Went to Pizza Hut one of those days, when my brother was back here in Penang. Dad has this one kind of thing where he doesn't want to eat luxuries foods if one of the family members isn't around. So, yeah, when bro was back, we had Pizza and everything we could. Hey, the two kids were here too! :D Well, Dad actually brought us for pizza because of the niece. XD

Nephew. ♡

Niece. Putting on lipstick/lip gloss or whatever. -_-

Niece singing with Daddy. Her microphone was the spoon. AHAHAHAHA!!!!

Her reaction after drinking Pepsi.

Daddy. ♡

Mommy. ♡

Brotha. ♡

Sister and Nephew. ♡

Niece! ♡

Favorite picha! Daddy and Niece. :D

I've a blessed family. ♡

Songkran 2011

2011-05-18T14:01:00.006+08:00

Finally I managed to attend the Songkran festival in the temple after so many freaking years missed it cause of school. It was held on 11th of April if I'm not mistaken. Yes, before the temple's birthday celebration and even before the actual date of festival! :D Obviously the Songkran celebration in the temple wasn't as grand as held in Thailand but hey, it was one of my best event attended in 2011! >:)

So, what is Songkran festival?

The Songkran festival is celebrated in Thailand as the traditional New Year's Day from 13 to 15 April. It coincides with the New Year of many calendars of South and Southeast Asia. The most obvious celebration of Songkran is the throwing of water. This, however, was not always the main activity of this festival. Songkran was traditionally a time to visit and pay respects to elders, including family members, friends, neighbors, and monks.Besides the throwing of water, people celebrating Songkran may also go to a wat (Buddhist monastery) to pray and give food to monks. They may also cleanse Buddha images from household shrines as well as Buddha images at monasteries by gently pouring water mixed with a Thai fragrance (Thai: น้ำอบไทย) over them. It is believed that doing this will bring good luck and prosperity for the New Year. In many cities, such asChiang Mai, the Buddha images from all of the city's important monasteries are paraded through the streets so that people can toss water at them, ritually 'bathing' the images, as they pass by on ornately decorated floats. In northern Thailand, people may carry handfuls of sand to their neighborhood monastery in order to recompense the dirt that they have carried away on their feet during the rest of the year. The sand is then sculpted into stupa-shaped piles and decorated with colorful flags.Source - Wikipedia.

Wat/Temple is just a walking distance from my Aunt's house. Very easy to go and come back lol. Well, pictures do the talk aight.

Second round into the wat with Daddy.

So, everyone prayed here on that day.

Monkey for entertainment haha. Kidding lol. The monkey was brought to wat to clear up the coconuts!

Fav food! Nasi kerabu!!!! <3

Many shops/stalls were open on that day. Food, accessories and etc. And as you can see, it wasn't just about throwing water. It included throwing powder! :O

This is Menteri Besar Perlis and the wife. The wife is in green baju kurung. They came to "rasmikan" Songkran festival.

That was all for the day. Many pictures taken but only chose the important ones to upload. Many many enjoy the day! I wonder if I could join this event next year........ Sigh sigh sigh.

Temple's 5th Birthday Part III

2011-05-17T15:14:00.000+08:00

Continuation from Part I and Part II.

Third day was as awesome as Day 1 and Day 2. The band invited for third night was Kinnari. Their songs are specially for the older people...... So not my type ops! x)

Like the previous bands, Kinnari came to temple in the afternoon to pray and rehearse. So, we took this precious opportunity to capture their pictures.

So lazy to explain everything. Just let the pictures do the talk. Huh.

The last two pictures were taken with the singer's girlfriend and the guitarist/drummer. More pictures with the band but all are in the phone. Sigh. Lazy to upload. Double sigh. :(

Took few minutes or an hour probably, just to update this blog. Very busy packing right now. Done shopping for clothes and needs and wants. Next is to pack them up! I hope it wouldn't be too much. Sigh. I thought I was happy to leave the home sweet home, I was wrong. Packing all those clothes and books make me realize that there's no place ever better than your own home. And after this, I've to be independent and do everything by myself. Sigh. No more homemade food from Momma. T____T Blahh, life has to move on. On the other hand, I'm excited to turn over a new page in my life! Hee! :D

PS If you realize, pictures are getting lesser and lesser from Part I to Part III. Hahaha!

PPS Less updates after this. But will update from time-to-time! :)

If it was me.

2011-05-15T15:58:00.008+08:00

Sometimes the best thing to do is keep quiet. Silence is the girl's loudest cry.

PS The doll above belongs to my niece. XD

And now, I miss you.

2011-05-10T00:43:00.001+08:00

Good morning readers. Past midnight and I'm still here. So addicted, heck yeah. :/ So, I'm back to my home sweet home since last Sunday. Came back to celebrate Mother's Day with the family. We had dinner together and cakes. >:) Oh, my brother was missing...... >:(

Two days been away from the kids. My heart aches every time I think of them. I miss them alot! Especially the small girl. T________T And going through her pictures in the lappie makes me tears. She's just too cute. I miss her a lil too much. Sigh. I'll be back soon, small girl! SOON.

PS Why is there such word as delay huh? So annoying. VERY annoying! Zzz. Every applicants must be very suspicious to know the results and all we got is delayed again. Darn it.

If I could go back and change it,

but I can't.

You gotta see how I do it.

2011-05-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

Life is just too great for you to waste your tears on it. But sometimes, tears express feelings that other things can't.

PS This was supposed to be yesterday's post. And this post was supposed to inform the readers that I'm only going back Penang tomorrow. Hee! :D
PPS Good luck to all whom applied JPA! The results can be checked tomorrow from 5 p.m. :O

You were the prince, I was the princess.

2011-05-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

Tell the world I'm coming home tomorrow!!!! Grins* :D

So reluctant to leave the kids back here, but can't wait to go back Penang and catch up movies! You know, there are always pros and cons in doing something. Sigh.

Anyways, be optimistic! I can have some time for myself and think what's the best. At least, for this one week. Yes, I'll be back to village after a week, lol.

Hello, Penang! Again. -__-

I'm coming home, coming home.

2011-05-02T10:01:00.000+08:00

Hello folks. :) How's everybahdy? It was definitely a great day yesterday, having my parents and Aunt and Uncle around here. Celebrated brother's 20th birthday and had a good time watching football with The Family. :D

I'm going back to my hometown again, with the kids, after a week in Penang. Ok, now I feel so reluctant going back there. -____- Was supposed to go back in the morning as early as 8am but The Parents were so good to send us back in the afternoon later. Winks* :D

PS I'll be back soon and blog about the Part III. In the meantime, do read Part I and Part II. >:)

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Yesterday was a great day despite the defeat of Barcelona to Real Sociedad through a penalty. Barcelona has been unbeaten for SEVEN freaking months in the league and almost match the record of Real Sociedad with 32 unbeaten games. But, it was an ALMOST. The defeat yesterday was the end of the 7 months unbeaten run. Cries like mad woman* D:

>>I'll just convince myself that sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. It's a game..

A fact that everyone should know:

All teams who played CL last week (Schalke, Man United, Madrid, Barcelona) lost their league game this weekend.
Source- @barcastuff

Now, everyone must be awaiting for the Champions League second leg in Old Trafford and Camp Nou. ManUnited is almost confirmed going into the Finals. But Barcelona needs to maintain their level up high as Madrid won't come to Camp Nou just to defend. Mourinho's tactics definitely did not work as he wanted a draw in the first leg. You gotta know something Mourinho, Barcelona plays with dignity and it's football! You just don't defend yo. And no teams ever want a draw like you do. You gotta attack to win! ~~Screw Madrid for accusing 7 Barca players and for requesting UEFA to suspend 6 Barca players.~~ Hey, that's half of the team! Grr.

Please have a look at this article; clicks! Written by Kenny Dalglish for the Daily Mail. Two words: BOO J.M.

You failed me at Anoeta. Do not fail me in Camp Nou this Wednesday morning again. </3

11:11 comes twice a day because everyone deserves a second chance.

Happy Birthday Brother!

2011-05-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

Happy Labour Day everyone! Stop working those workaholics! Get yourself sited and rest your mind! :D

Labour Day is definitely one of the most important day/date in my family. What's so big about it? It's the date when my brother was born 20 years ago. >:)

Happy Birthday Brother!
Have a blast one and may all your dreams come true. :)

Sorry I stole this picha from your fb. ><

You may not win the Best Brother award available on Earth but you definitely won it in our hearts. May you success in your life. Live life to the fullest. You're TWENTY already! :O

PS On an unrelated note, WHY IS BIEBER'S SONG PLAYING IN MY HEAD RIGHT NOW?! That should be me holding your hands....... WTH. -.-

Temple's 5th Birthday Part II

2011-04-30T17:35:00.000+08:00

Continuous from Temple's 5th Birthday Part I if you missed it the other day.

Woke up super early on a Sunday morning after a very tiring Saturday. Slept at almost THREE in the morning and woke up at EIGHT or NINE. But the whole thing was great cause everyone were there; my family and Aunt's family. It's parents' habit to have breakfast in the town on a Sunday morning if we were to be in Perlis. So, there we go for breakfast. Done breakfast, went temple and helped out a little. Many helpers on Sunday so, we did nothing much as our shift was night time.

Yours truly. :)

The bands/singers from Thailand actually arrived in Malaysia in the afternoon. And they came to the temple for lunch besides to pray and rehearse. The band for Sunday night was Laolom. This band is very popular: the singer is hawt! :O Back to the story, I actually missed the first day when Stamp and Sao 5 came to temple in the afternoon. So, I waited eagerly in the temple for Laolom with the camera on so that I won't miss another opportunity.

Pictures snapped while they prayed in the main hall:

Back to the main cast:

At first, I thought he (above) is the main singer. I was wrong.

The main singer (above) is wayyyyy hotter and hanzome! :O Now I get why girls are crazy over him. Hmmm.

My sister was like, "Stop focusing only him!" HAHAHA. Hey, he's that cool!

Laolom.

The Parents and sister went back Penang in the late evening, before the concert even started. I was left alone, again, with the two kids. As usual... -.- Before that, we camhoed like nobody's business.

Nephew's hand! Ishhh.

My hair style for that night. :D

The concert was the same as the previous day. Except that the songs were nicer (Stamp sang rock songs! Not my type, sorry). The band were dancing like crazy on the stage. The stage almost broke! -.- Not to mention the spectators. They danced like there's no tomorrow. And yeah, the spectators were much more than the previous day. And so the rubbish and everything. Tiring but fun fun day. Seriously! >:)

PS Stay tuned for Part III. :D

I found you in the crowd.

Our eyes met and we smiled.

We started with a "hai". It was good enough for me. :)