i try so hard to forget and yet i can't forget.
Friday, November 11, 2011 @ 11:11 AM ; 0 footprint(s)
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#nowplaying From The Beginning Till Now.
It's a must-watch video! <3
Time to spill out some things. It has been quite some time since I do so in this small space. I miss blogging.
I've had the worst and the best moments in life. Sometimes, I really wonder, what if I've never been hurt in the past, will I still be me today or the other way round? I've to admit pain makes you stronger. But at times, it kills you quietly and deeply in your heart. Worst part, you just have to bare it all alone as you have no one to turn to when you felt a slice in your heart. :/ WHY DO PEOPLE HURT EACH OTHER KNOWING EACH AND EVERYONE HAS A HEART TOO?! I just can't forgive myself that I forgive a person who hurt me how many freaking times just cause I love him/her. If and only if I am a heartless girl.
Memories..... are indescribable. I don't recall as much bad memories as I recalled the good times. I don't find it stupid and ridiculous to live with the memories. To me, it's part of me that keeps me going on life with a smile on my face. Though at times, when I'm really down, I cried over the memories, I still could wake up and smile, cause I know, memories are the one keeping me alive everyday. I just want to make today a memorable day by doing things I love cause I know, at the end of the day, it's only me here to paint the colors in my life, no one else will do so (not until I found the right one :D).
I've learned;
-good things come to those who wait but better to those who work for it.
-breaking up isn't the worst thing that ever happened (you won't die losing one person)
-pain is just another feeling that you can choose whether you want to overcome it or not.
I've learned to fake a smile in front of thousands when my heart is crying softly on the inside. I've learned to say NO to people who deserved it. I've learned that I am incapable of being a heartless girl. Cause after all, I am still me, I'm a human, I'm a girl; who falls for the right person but often at the wrong time; who believes in fate & destiny; who does stupid things without thinking; who is soft and weak when it comes to feelings matter; who just want to be happy.
Everything will be alright. Self-console* Because if it's not alright then it's not the ending yet. I will be perfectly alrighttttt. :)